Introduction
One of the most difficult things for someone to hear is that
a loved one is dead. The death of a loved one is an extremely
painful experience. It is more difficult, still, if that person
is the victim of homicide.
When death is caused by the deliberate act of another human being,
the pain of loss is usually both intense and complicated. The
way you experience this loss depends on
what happened at the time of the death
the actual act of violence
your past experience with violence or with the criminal
justice system
the support available to you
This webpage will explain some feelings and reactions that other
homicide survivors have experienced. It will explain something
about the process you will find yourself part of. It will encourage
you to seek whatever help you need. Many people find homicide
extraordinarily difficult to deal with. Prepare yourself as best
you can by surrounding yourself with those who can help you and
your family.
Experiencing Loss
The loss of a loved one is always painful. The experience of loss
through homicide is often different than death by accident or
by natural causes. When the death is violent, it is difficult
to understand how someone could commit such a crime. Both the
suddenness and manner of the death may cause additional emotional
stress, financial expenses, social difficulties, and physical
effects.
The Most Common Feelings of Grief
Experiencing grief is very individual. Not everyone feels the
same way or uses the same methods to cope. Common reactions to
grief include
shock
disbelief
emptiness
numbness
depression
yearning.
Other Feelings Common to Homicide Survivors
If you are a homicide survivor, you, or family members, may also
experience strong feelings of
confusion
fear
isolation
anger
vulnerability
guilt
humiliation
helplessness
revenge
blame
anxiety
loss of faith
These effects may last a long time, and these emotions may feel
worse during holidays or special days without your loved one.
Grief in Children
Children experiencing these emotions may not be able to tell
you how they are feeling. They may complain of headaches and stomachaches.
They may become aggressive. They may act young for their age,
going back to behaviours you thought they had outgrown. They may
seem to recover, then regress, over and over.
Grief in Parents
If the one who was killed was your child, the experience of loss
may not be the same for both parents. This can cause difficulties
between you.It is important to understand each
other 's reactions and to be patient with each other.
Dealing with Being the Victim of a
Crime
Being the victim of a crime will bring a whole set of experiences
that may be completely new for you. Mostly these will not be pleasant.
However, by knowing more about how things might go and what are
common worries and concerns, you may be better able to deal with
being the victim of crime. Some feelings and worries that you
may share with other victims of crime are listed below.
Media Coverage
You may not feel that you were treated fairly.
You may feel that your privacy was invaded.
You may be bothered by how the offender was described or
by details that were given.
You may worry that the media and society will blame your
loved one. Bad memories and guilty feelings
You may have witnessed the homicide.
You may have had to identify your loved one 's body.
You may feel that you could have done something to prevent
the death.
You may blame yourself for something you did or didn't
do that may have prevented the crime.
Worries About the Crime
You may worry that your love one suffered during the crime.
You may wonder how another human being could have deliberately
caused the death.
You may wonder about the number of accused persons or what
they were like.
You may wonder why your loved one was killed, whether it
was a random act or if there was a reason behind it.
You may fear that the offender may never be found or punished.
Concerns About Your Safety
. You may lose your sense of security, safety, and trust.
. You may fear the offender, or fear that the offender may hurt
someone else.
. You may not be able to watch the news or any images of violence.
Concerns About Your Family and Relationships
. You may have conflict about the crime within your family.
. Family members may blame one another.
. You may have known the offender.
. The offender may be a family member.
Be aware that as you deal with the criminal justice process or
the media, or both, the natural grieving process may be delayed
or postponed. Expect this and be patient both with yourself and
with family members.
If you need professional help to deal with the emotional effects
of the crime, please contact your local Victim Services office
and ask them about the Criminal Injuries Counselling Program..
The Criminal Justice Process
Being involved in the criminal justice system can be difficult.
Homicide survivors will have differing experiences and expectations
of the criminal justice system. This can depend upon the charges
laid and how the proceedings unfold. For example, some survivors
may have to wait years for a trial to actually take place. Family
members may differ strongly in their wishes to attend or not attend
the proceedings.
Our criminal justice system operates on a "presumption of innocence."
That means the accused person must be considered innocent until
proven guilty. As a homicide survivor, you may feel that the proceedings
favour the accused.
There are many stages to the criminal justice process. Homicide
survivors experience a wide range of reactions as they go through
each stage of the process.
For more detailed information on the criminal justice system,
the role of key people,and the steps in the court process, see
Criminal Justice System Information
or ask for a copy of the brochure Criminal Justice System Information
for Victims of Crime at your local Victim Services office.
What to Expect
Your grief and the natural processes of mourning may be complicated
by the extra things you need to do while participating in the
criminal justice process. You may share the following feelings
that have been experienced by other homicide survivors:
. isolation if some of the information is not told to
you during the investigation
. reliving the trauma as you see the accused or the accused
's family in the courtroom, provide testimony, hear the testimony
of others, or see pictures of the crime scene
exposure as your grief reactions or personal information
about your family or loved one are reported in the media
injustice or frustration if the accused is found
not guilty or receives a sentence with which you do not agree
disappointment if a guilty verdict does not ease
your pain.
Some homicide survivors have also felt that
the accused person receives better treatment than them
or their family, because the criminal justice process is based
on the rights of the accused
their loved one is forgotten in the trial process
their loved one's death is spoken of callously when the
focus is on the evidence and the actions of the accused
their loved one lacks a proper "voice" within
the criminal trial process
their suffering is made worse because of the length of
the trial process
You may experience these same feelings.
You may find that participating in the criminal justice process
helps you create a sense of safety, value, order, and control.
The process may be a vital part of the intense and very hard work
of adjusting to a new world and living without your loved one.
To a great degree this can depend upon the people you meet and
the help you receive.
For information on the services available to you through Victim
Services, please see Programs or ask
for a copy of the Programs and Services brochure at your local
Victim Services office.
Generally, contact with the Police, Crown Attorney, and Victim
Services ends when the trial is over. This may be the time when
you are finally able to grieve, and you may need more support.
Please speak to Victim Services staff about services available
in your community..
Other Sources of Help
MADD Canada
Selected Material
www.madd.ca
Your Grief:You 're Not Going Crazy
Helping Children Cope with Death
Men and Mourning:A Man 's Journey through Grief
Straight Talk about Death for Teenagers
We Hurt Too:A Guide for Adult Siblings
Fifteen Elements in Healing after Homicide (series)
(September, 1998 -January, 2001)
Pathways:Winnipeg, Manitoba
Naming the Violence
Stopping the Violence:Creating Safety
Grieving the Loss,Mourning the Memory
Encountering an Identity Crisis after Murder
The Need to Know and Reconstruct the Facts
Disconnection of Time
Spinning in a Time Warp
Attending to Our Anger,Recycling Our Rage
Holding Our Blame Accountable,Confronting Our
Self-Blame
The Need and Hope for Justice,Disillusionment
with the Justice System
Acknowledging the Loss:Finding Compensation
Exploring,Controlling or Breaking The Victim-
Offender Trauma Bond
The God Question:Searching for Meaning
Crystallized Behaviour:Getting Stuck,Breaking Free
Gaining Control,Independence and Freedom from
our Victim Dependency
Isolated,Feeling Alone,and Wanting to Belong
Justice for All
www.murdervictims.com/Holidays.htm
Holidays and Grief
Victims of Violence Canadian Centre for Missing Children
www.victimsofviolence.on.ca/research249.html
Homicide Survivors
Victims of Violence Canadian Centre for Missing Children
Ottawa, Ontario
Does Everyone Feel Like This?Victims and Grieving
Victims ' Voice
Getting Through the Maze:A Guidebook for Survivors of Homicide
(2002),Winnipeg, Manitoba
Victims ' Services Initiatives
www.gov.ns.ca/just/PolVS/CJSBrochure.htm
Criminal Justice System:Information for Victims of Crime
Victims ' Services Initiatives
http://www.gov.ns.ca/just/PolVS/programs.htm
Victim Services Programs and Services
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